I woke up this morning with a bit of an eery feeling and immediately started crying. At first I thought it might be because Andrew is leaving today but then I started thinking about how I'm going back to Ithaca in the fall (Yes, I'm going back...but that's another long story) and that made me sick to my stomach.
So I prayed for a few minutes and opened up my bible to 2 Chronicles 32. Which, initially, I had no intentions on reading. But God is good, and He urged me to read these pages, so I did; and boy am I thankful. :)
The bible I was reading out of is big, old, orange, and falling apart. It was given to me the day I get saved, nearly 6 years ago, by my youth pastor at the time and it is the NLT version. It is also a Student's Life Application bible which brings me to the point that there is a little excerpt on 32:1-8 entitled "Trusting God" that initially caught my eye and caused me to read this chapter. The excerpt says:
When King Hezekiah was confronted with an Assyriah invasion, he made two important decisions.
(1) He did everything he could do to deal with the situation, and (2) he trusted God for the outcome.
When you're faced with difficult or frightening situations, is this your pattern of action?
This spoke directly to me. I have been in the process of making a plethora of different decisions over the course of this semester, actually this entire year. It takes me a lot of time and persistent prayer to finally make a decision in order to be 100% positive that I have clearly heard from God and that I am taking the right steps to fulfill His will for my life.
Side note: Once I began reading the chapter, 32:5 mentions "supporting terraces" and ironically enough, I lived in the terraces at IC last semester, and that is most likely where I plan on living again in the fall. Although this verse is talking about how King Hezekiah reinforced these terraces and manufactured new weapons and shields to prepare his army during the fight against Assyria, the mention of the terraces reminded me of how that was my safe place in Ithaca. I felt comfortable there, and I had a support system of a couple of great friends. Living in the terraces was also how I came to meet one of the most God fearing, encouraging people I came to know at Ithaca: Jensey. She became one of my very best friends, and I'm so blessed and thankful that God put her in my life. Next year, Jensey and I plan on living in the terraces together again, with rooms right next to each other. Her plan is to be in a triple with our friends Fion and Sam; who will also be great encouragements to me while I am there. So that right there is something to be thankful for, a support system of Godly Christian women.
32:7-8 says:
Be strong and courageous! Don’t be afraid or discouraged because of the king of
Assyria or his mighty army, for there is a power far greater on our side!
He may have a great army, but they are merely men. We have the LORD our God to help
us and to fight our battles for us!” ...
I think that verse basically says it all but it was a reminder to me that God is on my side, despite how it appears sometimes, and despite how it may even feel. God has a plan, a purpose and a destiny for my life and He doesn't expect me to fight my battles alone. Actually, He plans on fighting them FOR me as long as I trust in Him and rely on Him for strength and courage. The devil has been trying his best to come against me lately, and even though he seems efficient and operative in his works, God's power and authority is SO MUCH GREATER and God can't be defeated by anything or anyone because He is all powerful.
Stomp the devil under our feet!
32:10-15
King Sennacherib Assyria sends a message to Hezekiah's people questioning God and mocking their faith and trust in God; saying that He can't rescue their city and trying to convince them that they are being deceived by King Hezekiah. That is what the devil has been trying to do to me lately: he has been trying to take away my trust in God, and instill a spirit of fear and worry inside of me.
God will defeat our adversary. And I am so thankful for that.